Journal

Entries From My Journal

Honest stories from starting over: the leaps, the fear, the healing and the everyday moments in between.

A water buffalo grazing in a green field

Wild · 12 August 2026

I Believe You’ve Got to Be a Little Delulu to Get What You Want in Life

Week 3 of conquering my fear of riding a scooter in Vietnam, and the little gifts (a puppy, a water buffalo, the right bike) that proved the universe has my back.

A white scooter parked under palm trees on a quiet path

Wild · 5 August 2026

I’m 38 and Overcoming My Fear of Riding a Scooter

Week 2 of learning to ride a scooter in Vietnam at 38: consistency, feeling the fear, speaking up, and the old wounds being a beginner brought up.

A lone tree by a still lake with hills behind

Healing · 8 June 2026

I Was the Friend Everyone Leaned On, and I Walked Away Zapped

Everyone felt better after seeing me; I needed days to recover. What I’ve learnt as an empath about clairsentience, boundaries and protecting my energy.

Feet up on a hillside, looking out over the sea at sunset

Healing · 5 June 2026

POV: You’re Single AF and See Loved Up Couples Everywhere You Go

Why did a loved-up couple make me cringe? How I treat triggers like coins in a game, collect the clues, and face the childhood wound underneath.

Lena on a scooter on a jungle road, arm raised to the sky

Healing · 28 May 2026

When It’s Time to Level Up, the Universe Is Relentless

The universe kept sending the same lesson in different cafés: trust what you already know, stop seeking validation, and show up as your whole, true self.

Lena crouching and hugging a black dog outside

Healing · 27 May 2026

The Hot Guy. The High Threat Man. I Was Avoiding Him Like the Plague

I thought ignoring the hot guy was “not feeding his ego”. It was self-protection: rejecting him before he could reject me. On self-worth and fear of love.

Healing · 14 May 2026

Bad Start = Bad Day. I Realised I’ve Been Running This Story for 38 Years

Why one bad thing can hijack your whole day (negativity bias and your brain’s filter) and the 4-step process I used in a Bali café to turn it around.

Wellness · 9 May 2026

The Productivity Trap Just Has a Prettier Mask Now

Alarms, time-blocked meditation, scheduled healing. How hustle culture snuck back in dressed as wellness, the signs of spiritual burnout, and my way back.

Lena and a friend taking a selfie on a scooter

Healing · 24 April 2026

I Caught Myself Thinking, “This Trainer Has No Idea What She’s Doing”

Mid Pilates class I caught myself judging the trainer. What judgement really says about us, the neuroscience of ego, and how compassion sets you free.

A long sandy beach curving around a bay beside train tracks

Healing · 17 April 2026

You Know That Constant Feeling Like Time Is Running Out?

Feeling behind at 38 while friends buy houses and have babies? How I found the perfectionism underneath, and the Ho’oponopono practice I use to let it go.

A palm tree above a deep blue bay and green hills

Healing · 11 April 2026

When There’s Something I Need to Learn, the Universe Puts Certain People in My Path

As a PT in Bondi I wore the mask every day: happy, high energy, perfect. On performative energy, social media validation, and the freedom of being yourself.

Wild · 9 April 2026

Who Decided We Had to Work Monday to Friday and Spend the Weekend Recovering From It?

Who decided we work Monday to Friday and spend weekends recovering? The surprising history of the five-day week, and why I’m living by my own rhythm.

Wellness · 3 April 2026

It’s Funny How the Very Thing I Spent Years Chasing Doesn’t Actually Exist

I spent years chasing the perfect work-life balance. My Vipassana teacher showed me I was asking the wrong question: it was never about the schedule.

Healing · 2 April 2026

I Spent Years Feeling Drained and Losing Myself in Relationships

Feeling drained, overgiving and losing yourself in the people you love? What I learnt about codependency, where it comes from, and what actually helps.

Healing · 1 April 2026

I Was Still Living Out a Story That Was No Longer Mine

A sleepless night and a chat with a waitress showed me I was still running an old belief on autopilot, long after my life had changed. The story, not the sleep.

Healing · 24 March 2026

Leaping into the Unknown: Part 2 — What Happens When You Bring Your Old Patterns With You

I moved to Bali and brought my old patterns with me: the hustle, the scarcity, the 5am alarms. What falling apart in paradise finally taught me.

Travel · 16 March 2026

Imagine Waking Up on a Monday to No Alarm

Living with a Balinese family taught me what freedom really is. Why I couldn’t slow down in Sydney, and how I now create my days with intention.

Wellness · 13 March 2026

Leaping into the Unknown: Part 1

At 36 I quit my 8-year PT career, packed up my life in Sydney and booked a one-way ticket to Bali. The fear, the knowing, and how the leap began.

Healing · 5 March 2026

For Years I Didn’t Even Realise I Was Living in Fight or Flight

I thought I was just driven and productive. I was living in fight or flight. The signs I notice now, and how I slow down when hustle creeps back in.

Wild · 3 March 2026

I Started Breaking Free from the System Before I Even Had the Words for It

At 21, heartbroken with a degree I didn’t want to use, I left Sydney for a tiny Whitsundays island. My first leap toward freedom, before I had the words.